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Taken directly from the band's myspace

Help Save Tony Lovato

As I'm sure you have heard, Tony Lovato(former singer of Mest) was arrested on murder charges on March 25th 2007. Tony was attacked by his current Girlfriends Ex-Boyfriend. Tony was fighting for his own safety and acted in self defense. After the altercation, Tony immediately called 911 to get help. Tony was treated at a nearby hospital prior to getting locked up. We now need your help! Tony is still in jail and is beginning to accrue a very large defense attorney fee. Tony parents have set up a paypal account for donations to help pay for these legal fees. Please click the link below to make a donation.

Thank you for your help with this. We want to free Tony as soon as possible.


I know you guys have a heart.

www.myspace.com/mest
incase anyone will actually wanna help out.

I don't care of anyone's opinions so please don't message me going 'no' if you care enough then do it.

Holy shit I really am updating more!

Anyway, my computer crashed tonight and I lost all my pictures not in a photobucket, all my documents and worst of all, all of my music (2315 songs) 

So if anyone wants to be darling enough to help me out this is what I need 

Boys Like Girls 
Permanent Me 
The two A Permanent Holiday tracks from the myspace page 
The two new Fall Out Boy songs 
The Early November (The Room's Too Cold) 
Mest (Mo Money Mo 40z) 
AFI (Decemberunderground) 
Alkaline Trio (Maybe I'll Catch Fire, Alkaline Trio, the split with One Man Army) 


That's all I can think of right now 

If you have what I need then PLEASE for the love of God IM me and I will call you my savior and kneel before you. 

Thanks!

Okay first things first, I plan to update more this year. Less insane rants and more actual updates. How amazing does that sound?  I don't understand the whole purpose of making resolutions is. Every year it's the same thing. Anway here's my list of resolutions this year, I will accomplish probably one. 

1) Buy more shoes 
2) Buy the Marc Jacobs bag I have been dying for 
3) Go to Vegas and spend all of the money I go with and drink until I can't stand up or remember my own name. 
4) See the White Sox and the Cubs in the same day. 
5) Learn to cook something that doesn't require a microwave 
6) Buy more tv on dvd 
7) Pay my bills on time 
8) Actually flip my calendar on the first day of each month
9) The obvious, try a new diet 
10) Work out more 
11) Ace all my classes in January and September 
12) Take more risks 
13) Save to buy a new car 
14) Spend more time with my friends and quit being a hermit 
15) Keep my room clean 
16) Stop color coding my closet and alphabetizing my dvds and cds 
17) See the new Harry Potter movie at least three times in theaters 
18) Spend less time on myspace and more time on livejournal 


And that is it! Post your comment with your resolutions!  

Time goes by I just try to hold my head up high people try to deny pass it by or just hide the feelings what's inside broken hearts and hard times don't let life break you down this time I'm sitting here crying here you're alone and dying there waiting for bad news like walking on broken glass no answers for what was asked you're all alone cause you know that I'd give my life for you time can be nothing but our enemy don't give up just hold on is the pain just too strong to hold sometimes we're wrong when we do it right tonight will be the night you'll break free from this fight don't let life break you dwon this time I'm sitting here crying here you're alone and dying there waiting for bad news like walking on broken glass no answers for what was asked you're all alone cause you know that I'd give my life for you time can be nothing but our enemy I'm dying from all I feel does it have to be this way memories of yesterday when it all just slips away I'd give up everything I have to keep you one more day I know that it's not right why do we feel this way why do I feel this way I'm sitting here crying here you're alone and dying there waiting for bad news like walking on broken glass no answers for what was asked you're all alone cause you know that I'd give my life for you time can be nothing but our emeny - Mest

 

Let me explain something to you pricks. I'm only explaining it once. So take into consideration what I'm going to say.. January 7th, 2004 was possibly the worst day of my life because I lost my best friend and no, she didn't walk out on me or stab me in the back. She died. She had a seziure and she drown while taking a bath. Now, a lot of you probably know what it's like to have a friend stab you in the back, or decide they don't want to be your friend anymore, but a lot of you.. don't have your best friend die. A lot of you don't have to live with th fact that you'll never see that person again. I have to live with that everyday and you know what, it's pretty fucking painful. When I lost her... I literally had nothing. I had a whole lot of friends who weren't speaking to me because I had changed and they thought I was weird or because I'd lost then because I was with my ex. All I had was music. The night Michele called me and told me that Krissy was gone. I didn't have the slightest fucking idea what to do with myself. I wanted to die. I went into my room I closed my eyes and I grabbed a fucking switchblade and I held it so tight to my wrist that you could see the droplets of blood fucking forming where the blade was. I turned on the music because I didn't want anyone to hear me. I wanted everyone to think that I was okay and to leave me the fuck alone. Well that song, that song right there... Walking On Broken Glass is the reason that I'm still here. If anyone out there thinks that I should just "get over this" then you have truely never had to live with having nothing but music. That is all I have. Everytime I hear that song I still think of her and I think that I'm still here because I wasn't supposed to die that night. Everytime I think of her I always think of "don't let life break you down this time". I am all alone in this world and I don't have much, but I have music which is my outlet. Everyone has one song, one lyric, one note that they identify themself with. Well this, this right here is mine. I probably wouldn't be here today if it wasn't for listening to that song hundreds of times on repeat when I thought my life was over. So to me, it hurts a little bit that they're quitting and it hurts a little bit that I'll never see them again. Music is all I have. This means everything to me. I hit rock fucking bottom. Not many of you... if any at all know what that's like. I had to pull myself together and I did it through music. I did it through bands like Mest, New Found Glory, Good Charlotte, and Blink 182. So for those of you that think I should just get over this and it was bound to happen eventually... think about the worst day of your life. To me.. that's the day I lost one of the most important people in mine. Everytime I go and see her and I sit at her grave side and I talk to her and tell her what's going on in my life... that song is playing in the back of my mind. So no, I'm not just going to get over it because it. Mest isn't trendy. They don't have an exceptionally large fanbase like some of the other made for MTV pop punk bands out there and you all know exactly who I'm talking abou, but they wrote the music that changed my life and maybe that doesn't mean shit to any of you, but it means a fucking lot to me. A lot of you, I never would have even met if it wasn't for seeing them play. I'm greatful for that, because I found friends who have a little bit of understanding of how I feel. Now maybe some of you think I'm being overdramatic or overreacting, but you know what.. I don't give a fuck because you don't know. You don't know what it's like to have nothing and to hear the voice of someone who's become a stranger on the other end of the phone telling you that your best friend is dead. You have no idea what it's like to be staring at your life as a plate of glass and have a fucking stone thrown through it.

 

And with that I say, fuck you, because some of you kids would cry your little hearts out if it was fucking Fall Out Boy or My Chemical Romance or shit like that. Well to me, this is sad, and it is important to me and that's my story. Like I said everyone has a song, a lyric, a note that they identify themselves with and that... that's mine and that's why I do. You don't know how much you love something until it's gone. None of you were at Krissy's funeral when my brother and my friends had to grab me by the waste and throw me in the car because I tried so hard to crawl into the ground with her. So if you think that I should just get over this I think that you should I either...

a) GO FUCK YOURSELF

or

b) Go kill yourself

 

When you have nothing... then come and talk to me and tell me how you feel when you find that song you can identify with. Don't tell me to get over shit because it'll make me hate you. It'll make me wonder what the fuck is wrong with you, and it'll make me want to be there on the worst day of your life to watch you suffer the way I fucking suffered when I lost one of the most important people in my life.

I'm all alone in this hotel room the fear inside of me is uncontrolable I hear the cops see the sun the sky is blue and all I can think about is being with you yes I'm all alone again - Mest

 

I'm not sure where this update should begin. It's gonna be a long one. It was an interesting weekend.

 

 

( Best Western Room 217 party like whoa bitches  )

Step 1: Put mp3 player on random.
Step 2: Pick your favorite lines from the first 30 songs that play.
Step 3: Post and let everyone you know guess what song the lines come from.
Step 4: Cross out the songs when someone guesses correctly.

1) Bye bye beautiful don't bother to write
2) If you don't wanna say anything at all I'm happy wondering
3) A broken nose and a broken heart an empty bottle of gin I sit and I pray in my broken down Chevrolet
4) I never tried to make the best of my time when I thought that I had plenty of it
5) Late night drives all alone in my car I can't help but start singing lines from all our favorite songs
6) We're gonna die like this you know miserable and old
7) I thought this day would never end never thought tonight could ever be so close to me
8) I'm punching myself out holding in my breath I can't take this lightly throwing up the words that I said to you I always do
9) How could you say love me well I know that wasn't true you were never thinking of me cause you were too much in love with you
10) We are the kids of war and peace from Anaheim to The Middle East we are the stories and disciples of the Jesus Of Suburbia
11) She said you're a touch overrated you're a lush and I hate but these grass stains on my knees they won't mean a thing
12) I'd rip my heart out of my chest make your room a crimson mess I'd do it all with no regrets if it would bring you back to me
13) That same old crowd that drags me down another day in a boring town
14) So now I'm staying up all night cause I'm trying to understand why I feel like I've been stuck here forever
15) And last night's dirty clothes are on the floor next to the phone that's been disconnected months ago
) You know it starts here outside waiting in the cold kiss me once in the snow I swear it never gets old
17) What was the point to all of this what was the point to our first kiss I guess the news I heard was true
18) You can throw me like a boomerange I'll come back and beat you up
19) The wedding party all collapsed in the room so send my resigination to the bride and the groom
20) We'll listening to bsides and sing along to anthems of the years gone by integrity and honesty will prevail tonight
21) Rather then fix the problems they never solve them it makes no sense at all
22) Do hold the phone when you're alone imagine that it rings and hold it to your ear wish that I was there to sing you off to sleep
23) Here we go we're at the begining we haven't fucked yet but my head's spinning
24) You know I'm not gonna diss you on the internet cause my momma taught me better then that
25) I'd rather laugh with the sinners then cry with the saints the sinners are much more fun
26) I had leave that night cause I knew something wasn't right we held each other as the night came to end but all I could think about was your boyfriend
27) You better watch who you talkin' about runnin' ya mouth like you know me
28) Only boys that save their pennies make my rainy days
29) Let's smoke some cigarettes and catch up on the back porch fire up another roach
30) Remember the time we wrote our names up on the wall remember the time we realized Thriller was our favorite song

Step 1: Put mp3 player on random.
Step 2: Pick your favorite lines from the first 30 songs that play.
Step 3: Post and let everyone you know guess what song the lines come from.
Step 4: Cross out the songs when someone guesses correctly.

1) More license plates then your DMV taking more total requests then your MTV
2) It's you and me on a Monday the lies that told this is where both go numb now you broke my heart again this time
3) We suck yeah we're never gonna make it we're too dumb to be rich and famous
4) All I can taste is champagne dancing it's way down my veins spinning around and around I can't get up without your help
5) Who's gonna love you if you hate yourself?
6) Oh baby I wanna get with ya and take your picture
7) And don't deny you're talking behind my back to your friends and don't deny one day you'll need me, need me
8) People always tell me not to waste my time to get a real job and get back in line you can say I'll never be a millionaire tell me this guitar won't get me anywhere
9) My tears are turning to time I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye
10) Someday somebody's gonna make you wanna turn around and say goodbye till then baby are you gonna let them hold you down and make you cry
11) That same crowd that drags me down another day in a boring town
12) I feel good you're the best friend that I found I feel good when I'm coming back to your town
13) Everything I know about breaking hearts I learned from you and I've done it with the style and grace you have
14) You would give up anything to prove your point there's nothing left to say you will never change your ways
15) As we die both you and I with my head in my hands I sit and cry
16) Listen to Iron Maiden baby
17) Wondering if this was all we had 40 oz intoxicated dreams all our faded memories that's what made us who we are today
18) She doesn't like getting hurt when serious relations end he only wants to see her whenever she will permit
19) I'd rather laugh with the sinners then cry with the saints the sinners are much more fun
20) Late night drives all alone in my car I can't help but start singing lines from all our favorite songs
21) This place is so empty my thoughts are so tempting I don't know how it got so bad
22) I'm missing you every second of time and it hurts cause you're so far away
23) I'll leave my room open till sunrise for you I'll keep eyes patiently focused on you
24) Empty words are not enough I left you with the question what have I to show except the promises I never kept
25) LA to Salt Lake in one long night the sun is coming up but my body feels cold inside
26) I thought this day would never end never thought could ever be so close to me
27) Hanging on the corner of 52nd and Broadway the cars pass me by but none of them seem to go my way
28) McGreevey lead the charge into the park stormed the gates and put the game on hold
29) I'll be your number one with a bullet a loaded God complex cock it and pull it
30) I know I'm still far from you and it feels like I'm still far from home my name is a disappointment I only disappoint myself

Yeah so new old screen name is currently in use... paid x to smile... add it love it. yep

YDon't blame us if we ever doubt you you know we couldn't live without you RED SOX you are the only only onlyyyyy - Dropkick Murphys

Yeah I'm watching the Sox game and we definetly CRUSHED Tampa. Florida sports teams suck. Anyway yeah so do that thinger.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Ever wanted to see something about my life? I have a digital camera, so REQUEST A PICTURE. You can request anything you want - a picture of something in my house, in my life, in my neighborhood.. etc you get the idea.

 

 

You mourn the death of your bloody valentine the night he died you mourn the death of your bloody valentine one last time oh my love please don't cry I'll wash my bloody hands and we'll start a new life I don't know much at all I don't know wrong from right all I know is that I love you tonight - Good Charlotte

 

Valentine's Day sucks... I hope you all choke on your Russell Stovers chocolates and I hope all your flowers fucking die. That is all.

It's Friday night what's going on tonight I'll see her later on tonight but now it's time to roll this sober state is getting old well I never do what I'm told so now we're gonna roll and now we're gonna roll with the top down seat back rolling in my cadilac - Mest

Has anyone else actually sat and wondered why exactly we're all online on a Friday night instead of out having a life? Cause I'm sort of wondering that right now. I am offically lame... I'm about to take a nap and then I plan to get up and watch the tsunami benifit concert on MTV. How cool is that for a Friday night? My brother's car broke down today on the highway so we're not going out, and well everyone once again seems to busy to chill cause all my friends are assholes. Anyway I should go take the nap cause I'm uber tired, which is strange because I went to bed at 12:30 last night and woke up at 11 today. Go figure. I sleep for 10 hours and I'm still tired, can we say LOSER? Yeah I'd say so anyway, if I come up with something better to write about maybe I'll come back and write it.

 

If anyone has tour dates for Good Charlotte/Simple Plan let me know what the Boston date is.

HEY SO IF ANY OF YOU COOL KIDS KNOW WHO HACKED MY FUCKING GJ THEN HOW ABOUT SOMEONE STOP BEING A COWARD AND FESS UP AND TELL ME... THAT'D BE FUCKING GREAT!